Rainy Dae 21/10/08

Long time nve update my blog le....time flies veri fast,My mum passed away nearly 2 mth le.... Reali miz her alot, sumtime I been thinkin hw is my mum over der? Did she mit up my auntie or my darlin Father? Sound a bit funny rite? Dunno y I gt dis thinkin....If she mit up my auntie or my darlin Father, oso gd ar... at least she wun feel lonely....


Ytd is my son Martin, 6 yrs old B'dae.... Too bad is couldn't celebrate or wish him... Coz my mum juz passed away... N we haf to follow e chinese Tradition, wen ur parents passed away, 3 yrs cannt celebrate B'dae n cannt attend any function or funeral...


I nod my son muz feel sad coz he dun haf any B'dae cake to eat n nve receive any present from mi..... Earlier he haf told mi, he wan his B'dae cake gt Ben 10 cartoon design... coz he luv dis cartoon character alot, bt too bad all his dream cant get true..... Coz many thing happen too sudden le... no one can accept it....

Hw i wish all r a dream... bt dream oso haf to wake up....no wan wan its to happen....As for mi, nowadays nve wrk le... stayin at my brother in law hse... everydae watchin disc lo... bt my mother in law reali veri gd, nve rush mi to find job... juz ask mi slowly find a job tt i reali like lo....

I reali veri lucky to haf dis mother in law.... She reali luv mi alot... N oso my brother in law n my sis in law lo....My brother in law will disturd mi or joke wif mi n my sis in law will buy HK drama or Korean drama for mi to watch... Maybe der dun wan mi to think too much lo.....

Miserable nite 21/8/08

Wow quite a long time nve update my blog le.....coz at dis nite 21/8/08 my mum pass away at hospital..... Tt nite ard 8plus e doc. col mi say my mum nw veri danger... ask mi to col my family to rush dw to hospital.... den i col my sis n tell her wad happen.... den she ask mi to wait for her at e roadside der....20mins ltr, my sis n her bf reach,her bf drive us go dw to hospital...wen we on e way cumin dw... my father col mi say my mum pass away le... i tell my father we nw on e way le... den I send sms to my darlin meimei say my mum couldnt make it le.... she was blur at first den i tell her sayonara le... she was shock to heard e bad news... ask mi reach hospital to confirm le den gif her a col.... I was shock n sad to c my mum lyin on e bed....den i touch her is areadi a cold body.i was desperate cryin coz i cant believe it... tt person is my mum, my darlin col mi n heard mi cryin,n she nod wad happen le,she ask mi to wait for her cum dw.....she send mi a msg say no matter wad she will accompany mi till e end of e dae....

20 mins ltr, my darlin reach le... she nve say anythin juz lend mi her shoulder to let mi cry out,Den i tell her i cant get to c my mum last breathe.... den she go in to c my mum e last.... den ard 10 plus to 11, my father ask mi to go hm first n ask mi to wait for his col 2mlo morn....den i accompany my darlin go hm change clothes, her bro c mi ask mi to be strong coz he nod e taste, n my darlin mum nod tt i at outside she faster cum out to c mi... C hw am i le... her mum oso dunno wad to say at all juz ask mi dun think too much....N she try to tok other topic to mi lo....

after tt my darlin accompany mi go my mother in law hse to stay over nite.... In e morn, my mother in law is shock to c mi at hm, den she cook many food for mi n my darlin eat.... she knew wad happen bt she wun ask juz make fun of mi n tok joke.....my darlin was surprise to c our breakfast is so full..... ard 8 plus in e morn, my father col mi n ask mi to rush dw to my mother hse dwstair to wait for e casket ppl lo....

N my mum funeral stay for 3 daes..... all e things my darlin help mi to handle it, I reali dunno wad to do if my darlin is nt wif mi....

I oso dun wan to tok much le....I onli nod here i veri grateful to all my daddy(poh teck) frenz hu attend e last funeral nite.....n oso all my sisters n frenz.... bt e last person i wan to grateful is my darlin meimei n my sis bf hu helpin us alot.....thks alot my darlin...

Cloudy Dae 17/8/08

Ytd after knock off, I straight away go dw to TTS to visit my mum at S.I.C.U....Wen I reach der, my mum seen dunno hu am i no matter hw I col her, she stared at daze...... Den I ask e nurse hw is my mum condition le..... she told mi nw is stable.... den I ask her can my mum recognize ppl, she say no even i visit her, she oso dunno hu am i..... E nurse told mi its tk time for her..... coz her left brain blood vessel bled tt leads her like tt lo..... I reali dunno wad to do....N e moment e nurse say even I visit her she dunno hu am i , I reali veri sad.... e feeling veri bad lo....

After visitin my mum, I go dw tk train to AMK to mit my daddy(Poh Teck) der all..... E moment I reach A star, My daddy ask mi hw is my mum le, I was veri surprise den I ask him, hw he nod, he say my darlin(meimei) tell him de.... coz he saw my MSN nick ma, so he ask her wad happen to mi...... Den I say AMK forever no sercet de, e moment I step in my daddy will nod wad happen to mi le.... At A star , I saw commander Hao, baby n my long time frenz Rong Biao..... Den Rong Biao say , long time nve c mi sittin at coffeeshop almost 6 to 9 mths le.... den I say like tt gd ma.... n oso veri bizi wrkin , den he ask mi wre is my son, he say long time nve play wif him le.... miz him alot.....

I nod tt e moment I cumin dw to AMK ,my face muz be smilin like treat it nothin happen at all, coz I dun wan my daddy n my frenz hu care for mi... to be wori abt mi..... no matter hw i joke or treat it nothin happen, my eyes oso cant run away from my daddy, coz he nod mi so many yrs le.... even i jokin , he oso wun ask mi so much.... he knew tt if I dun wan to say it out, I will either keep quiet or jokin wif dem.....last nite, I tell my daddy I miss our dae at chalet n B.B.Q... den i ask him wen gg to organize B.B.Q again, den we can fun again like e past....

Dunno Y wen I mit up my daddy n Rong Biao, feel veri relieve n secure... maybe is I nod dem many yrs le....n der two wun treat mi as a lady, coz to dem I look like guys...so no matter der say anythin i wun feel uncomfortable at all....

Anyways thks alot to my daddy(Poh Teck) n my darlin(Meimei), n my frenz.... I nod tt nothin can be hide from dem n I feel veri touch coz I nod tt der wil always der for mi no matter wad happen to mi.... N here I reali grateful to my daddy,thks for been toterlate my hot temper n unreasonable dau. like mi for so many years.... n i nod like tt u dote mi alot......In dis world U reali a great n good DADDY, if gt nxt life I still will choose be ur dau.... N oso gt wan person to grateful, TT person is my Darlin(Meimei), reali thks alot for lovin n carin mi for so manys years, although sumtime we will quarrel bt at e end is k.... N u e onli wan hu nod wad am i thinkin n always der for mi no matter wad happen to mi..... reali thks alot my darlin.......

Cloudy Dae 12/8/08

Last Sun(10/8/08) I was wrkin full shift, Coz my boz off so I alone tend e shop, suddenly my darlin(meimei) sms mi, ask wre am I den I tell her I was wrkin den she say she miz mi wander hug mi, den I ask her wre she is , she told mi she at hm...... den she ask if she c mi , will i cry den i tell her I wun..... after tt she nve reply...... bt she gif mi a big surprise, she sudden appear at my shop, I was reali shock.... reali veri touched.... feel gg to drop tears, bt I bear wif it..... reali quite a long time nve c n hug her le.....N she brought mi a top tt she bought it at J.B........ Its reali a limited top lo.... Coz its veri special n nice top.... I reali luv it alot..... nothin is more special den it..... coz its my darlin hu bought it for mi.... den we chat for quite long n oso tk photo.... e feelin is we lost it for many yrs n finally we found each other.......


Sat(9/8/08) Is National Dae, I go Hospital to visit my mum.... wen I c her, I reali shock coz my mum hand swollen , den I ask e nurse , bt she say maybe is e preciously time der insert e grip lo den cause her hand swollen ..... I dunno my mum nod tt I visit her ant coz everytime I visit her her eyes is close lo..... unless she cough den she will open her eyes..... I oso dunno Y........

N oso wan gd news is ytd I go I.C.A my citizenship approve le.... no more using blue I.C le.... hahaha...... finally wait for e dae cum...... I was reali veri happi......

Todae I go n register for Pri. Skol..... N everythin is settle le..... onli waitin for dem to post to mi e result..... C my son is admit or nt before 18/8/08 der will post to mi n let mi nod...... I reali hope will successful.... If der is a god, pls help mi....... I will veri gd n wun create any trouble le..... Juz let my son successful get e skol......

Sunny Dae 8/8/08

Todae is National Dae Eve, Happi 43 B'dae to SINGAPORE...... Dis morn 6.30am haf to wake up to prepare my things, coz haf to go M.O.E again....... ard 7am, I haf to wake my son up to go skol... Coz todae his skol gt celebration... haf to wear red n white clothes lo...... Den I n my sister in law together go n tk train coz she accompany mi dw to M.O.E lor...... veri tired n sleepy , so early wake up..... so wen I at train, first thing I do is sleep..... coz I nt enough ltr I go to wrk sure will sleepy lo..... N e destination is at Burno Vista..... its a long journey lo.... Bt at e end, I oso waste my trip once again......E person in charge told mi no nid to do statutory declaration coz I nt qualified.... N I oso wrk as part time.... Den der tell mi once I get all e document tt can prove my son den I can use my address to register e skol...... after finish it, I n my sis in law is dame tired n hungry lo....den we tk train back to Yio Chu Kang .... Wen e time I reach is areadi 11 plus... Den I faster open e shop n pack out all e things.... N ready to start my dae.... Late for wrk is k bt kana nag by e card supplier uncle is veri sianz.... den I let him nag on e phone lo..... dun bother wad he say.... todae haf to wrk till 9pm coz late from wrk lo..... anyway is k lo.... coz my Boz treat mi veri gd.... Dis 2 mth i been takin unpay leave, N he oso understand lo....... I tink I cant find another boz like him lo......

Rainy Dae 7/8/08

Dis morn I receive a col from TTS hospital... E doc.say my mum feel breatheless n haf fever..... so haf to send back to ICU for closer monitor.... I feel veri strange lor.... firstly say her condition is stable, nw haf to send back ICU again......My mum reali veri suffer.... From young to old, she nve enjoy gd life before.... Tk care of us so hard, bt I cant do anything at all, reali feel useless.....Wen I was young, no matter hw I create trouble, my mum will always der for mi, juz like my father beat mi or I failed my exam, my mum will always stand in front of mi, bt I nve fufill my duties as a dau. to filial her, onli nod hw to quarrel wif her or throw temper at her.....

If der is a god, I reali hope u gif mi a chance to filial my mum.... So I wun haf any regret........

Cloudy Dae 6/8/08

wow.... todae e weather so cloudy,dunno will rain sucessful ant..... Hopefully will rain lo..... ytd my frenz Yvonne (wywy) col mi ask am i free todae ??? coz todae she B"dae so ask mi join dem for dinner, bt I reject it.... Coz nowadaes my family gt lot things happen so dun haf e mood..... N I oso dun wan to spoil their mood lo....... I dun wan coz of mi all e atmosphere becum strange n quiet lo..... Bt i gt tell her other time den treat her eat lo...... Dunno y mi become more n more Emo le..... Maybe lots of tings happen to mi, tt y becum like tt ba.....Last time cheerful n happi go lucky DEVILS dunno go wre le...... Hw I wish time can go back to e past....... coz nothin to bother n happi go lucky to pass my dae....... nw haf to bother n worri so much things......

As for e kinships or frenzship, in dis world dun haf real kins or frenz de..... If haf onli a few tt can trust n confide yourself lo..... Or else u r Nobody lo..... Nw make mi realise tt if u r wealthy or gt $$$, tt will col kinship or frenzship if u r poor, tt will no more kinships or frenzship n der will drift u far apart...... till lost contact Or M.I.A lo......so I tell myself I will make him pay double n let him taste hw is it e feelin begin helpless??? Dun let mi haf it a sucessful one dae....