Devils Story

Rainy Dae 21/10/08

2008-10-21T05:26:00.000-07:00

Long time nve update my blog le....time flies veri fast,My mum passed away nearly 2 mth le.... Reali miz her alot, sumtime I been thinkin hw is my mum over der? Did she mit up my auntie or my darlin Father? Sound a bit funny rite? Dunno y I gt dis thinkin....If she mit up my auntie or my darlin Father, oso gd ar... at least she wun feel lonely....

Ytd is my son Martin, 6 yrs old B'dae.... Too bad is couldn't celebrate or wish him... Coz my mum juz passed away... N we haf to follow e chinese Tradition, wen ur parents passed away, 3 yrs cannt celebrate B'dae n cannt attend any function or funeral...

I nod my son muz feel sad coz he dun haf any B'dae cake to eat n nve receive any present from mi..... Earlier he haf told mi, he wan his B'dae cake gt Ben 10 cartoon design... coz he luv dis cartoon character alot, bt too bad all his dream cant get true..... Coz many thing happen too sudden le... no one can accept it....

Hw i wish all r a dream... bt dream oso haf to wake up....no wan wan its to happen....As for mi, nowadays nve wrk le... stayin at my brother in law hse... everydae watchin disc lo... bt my mother in law reali veri gd, nve rush mi to find job... juz ask mi slowly find a job tt i reali like lo....

I reali veri lucky to haf dis mother in law.... She reali luv mi alot... N oso my brother in law n my sis in law lo....My brother in law will disturd mi or joke wif mi n my sis in law will buy HK drama or Korean drama for mi to watch... Maybe der dun wan mi to think too much lo.....

Miserable nite 21/8/08

2008-09-20T01:44:00.000-07:00

Wow quite a long time nve update my blog le.....coz at dis nite 21/8/08 my mum pass away at hospital..... Tt nite ard 8plus e doc. col mi say my mum nw veri danger... ask mi to col my family to rush dw to hospital.... den i col my sis n tell her wad happen.... den she ask mi to wait for her at e roadside der....20mins ltr, my sis n her bf reach,her bf drive us go dw to hospital...wen we on e way cumin dw... my father col mi say my mum pass away le... i tell my father we nw on e way le... den I send sms to my darlin meimei say my mum couldnt make it le.... she was blur at first den i tell her sayonara le... she was shock to heard e bad news... ask mi reach hospital to confirm le den gif her a col.... I was shock n sad to c my mum lyin on e bed....den i touch her is areadi a cold body.i was desperate cryin coz i cant believe it... tt person is my mum, my darlin col mi n heard mi cryin,n she nod wad happen le,she ask mi to wait for her cum dw.....she send mi a msg say no matter wad she will accompany mi till e end of e dae....

20 mins ltr, my darlin reach le... she nve say anythin juz lend mi her shoulder to let mi cry out,Den i tell her i cant get to c my mum last breathe.... den she go in to c my mum e last.... den ard 10 plus to 11, my father ask mi to go hm first n ask mi to wait for his col 2mlo morn....den i accompany my darlin go hm change clothes, her bro c mi ask mi to be strong coz he nod e taste, n my darlin mum nod tt i at outside she faster cum out to c mi... C hw am i le... her mum oso dunno wad to say at all juz ask mi dun think too much....N she try to tok other topic to mi lo....

after tt my darlin accompany mi go my mother in law hse to stay over nite.... In e morn, my mother in law is shock to c mi at hm, den she cook many food for mi n my darlin eat.... she knew wad happen bt she wun ask juz make fun of mi n tok joke.....my darlin was surprise to c our breakfast is so full..... ard 8 plus in e morn, my father col mi n ask mi to rush dw to my mother hse dwstair to wait for e casket ppl lo....

N my mum funeral stay for 3 daes..... all e things my darlin help mi to handle it, I reali dunno wad to do if my darlin is nt wif mi....

I oso dun wan to tok much le....I onli nod here i veri grateful to all my daddy(poh teck) frenz hu attend e last funeral nite.....n oso all my sisters n frenz.... bt e last person i wan to grateful is my darlin meimei n my sis bf hu helpin us alot.....thks alot my darlin...

Cloudy Dae 17/8/08

2008-08-16T20:29:00.000-07:00

Ytd after knock off, I straight away go dw to TTS to visit my mum at S.I.C.U....Wen I reach der, my mum seen dunno hu am i no matter hw I col her, she stared at daze...... Den I ask e nurse hw is my mum condition le..... she told mi nw is stable.... den I ask her can my mum recognize ppl, she say no even i visit her, she oso dunno hu am i..... E nurse told mi its tk time for her..... coz her left brain blood vessel bled tt leads her like tt lo..... I reali dunno wad to do....N e moment e nurse say even I visit her she dunno hu am i , I reali veri sad.... e feeling veri bad lo....

After visitin my mum, I go dw tk train to AMK to mit my daddy(Poh Teck) der all..... E moment I reach A star, My daddy ask mi hw is my mum le, I was veri surprise den I ask him, hw he nod, he say my darlin(meimei) tell him de.... coz he saw my MSN nick ma, so he ask her wad happen to mi...... Den I say AMK forever no sercet de, e moment I step in my daddy will nod wad happen to mi le.... At A star , I saw commander Hao, baby n my long time frenz Rong Biao..... Den Rong Biao say , long time nve c mi sittin at coffeeshop almost 6 to 9 mths le.... den I say like tt gd ma.... n oso veri bizi wrkin , den he ask mi wre is my son, he say long time nve play wif him le.... miz him alot.....

I nod tt e moment I cumin dw to AMK ,my face muz be smilin like treat it nothin happen at all, coz I dun wan my daddy n my frenz hu care for mi... to be wori abt mi..... no matter hw i joke or treat it nothin happen, my eyes oso cant run away from my daddy, coz he nod mi so many yrs le.... even i jokin , he oso wun ask mi so much.... he knew tt if I dun wan to say it out, I will either keep quiet or jokin wif dem.....last nite, I tell my daddy I miss our dae at chalet n B.B.Q... den i ask him wen gg to organize B.B.Q again, den we can fun again like e past....

Dunno Y wen I mit up my daddy n Rong Biao, feel veri relieve n secure... maybe is I nod dem many yrs le....n der two wun treat mi as a lady, coz to dem I look like guys...so no matter der say anythin i wun feel uncomfortable at all....

Anyways thks alot to my daddy(Poh Teck) n my darlin(Meimei), n my frenz.... I nod tt nothin can be hide from dem n I feel veri touch coz I nod tt der wil always der for mi no matter wad happen to mi.... N here I reali grateful to my daddy,thks for been toterlate my hot temper n unreasonable dau. like mi for so many years.... n i nod like tt u dote mi alot......In dis world U reali a great n good DADDY, if gt nxt life I still will choose be ur dau.... N oso gt wan person to grateful, TT person is my Darlin(Meimei), reali thks alot for lovin n carin mi for so manys years, although sumtime we will quarrel bt at e end is k.... N u e onli wan hu nod wad am i thinkin n always der for mi no matter wad happen to mi..... reali thks alot my darlin.......

Cloudy Dae 12/8/08

2008-08-11T18:47:00.000-07:00

Last Sun(10/8/08) I was wrkin full shift, Coz my boz off so I alone tend e shop, suddenly my darlin(meimei) sms mi, ask wre am I den I tell her I was wrkin den she say she miz mi wander hug mi, den I ask her wre she is , she told mi she at hm...... den she ask if she c mi , will i cry den i tell her I wun..... after tt she nve reply...... bt she gif mi a big surprise, she sudden appear at my shop, I was reali shock.... reali veri touched.... feel gg to drop tears, bt I bear wif it..... reali quite a long time nve c n hug her le.....N she brought mi a top tt she bought it at J.B........ Its reali a limited top lo.... Coz its veri special n nice top.... I reali luv it alot..... nothin is more special den it..... coz its my darlin hu bought it for mi.... den we chat for quite long n oso tk photo.... e feelin is we lost it for many yrs n finally we found each other.......

Sat(9/8/08) Is National Dae, I go Hospital to visit my mum.... wen I c her, I reali shock coz my mum hand swollen , den I ask e nurse , bt she say maybe is e preciously time der insert e grip lo den cause her hand swollen ..... I dunno my mum nod tt I visit her ant coz everytime I visit her her eyes is close lo..... unless she cough den she will open her eyes..... I oso dunno Y........

N oso wan gd news is ytd I go I.C.A my citizenship approve le.... no more using blue I.C le.... hahaha...... finally wait for e dae cum...... I was reali veri happi......

Todae I go n register for Pri. Skol..... N everythin is settle le..... onli waitin for dem to post to mi e result..... C my son is admit or nt before 18/8/08 der will post to mi n let mi nod...... I reali hope will successful.... If der is a god, pls help mi....... I will veri gd n wun create any trouble le..... Juz let my son successful get e skol......

Sunny Dae 8/8/08

2008-08-07T21:42:00.000-07:00

Todae is National Dae Eve, Happi 43 B'dae to SINGAPORE...... Dis morn 6.30am haf to wake up to prepare my things, coz haf to go M.O.E again....... ard 7am, I haf to wake my son up to go skol... Coz todae his skol gt celebration... haf to wear red n white clothes lo...... Den I n my sister in law together go n tk train coz she accompany mi dw to M.O.E lor...... veri tired n sleepy , so early wake up..... so wen I at train, first thing I do is sleep..... coz I nt enough ltr I go to wrk sure will sleepy lo..... N e destination is at Burno Vista..... its a long journey lo.... Bt at e end, I oso waste my trip once again......E person in charge told mi no nid to do statutory declaration coz I nt qualified.... N I oso wrk as part time.... Den der tell mi once I get all e document tt can prove my son den I can use my address to register e skol...... after finish it, I n my sis in law is dame tired n hungry lo....den we tk train back to Yio Chu Kang .... Wen e time I reach is areadi 11 plus... Den I faster open e shop n pack out all e things.... N ready to start my dae.... Late for wrk is k bt kana nag by e card supplier uncle is veri sianz.... den I let him nag on e phone lo..... dun bother wad he say.... todae haf to wrk till 9pm coz late from wrk lo..... anyway is k lo.... coz my Boz treat mi veri gd.... Dis 2 mth i been takin unpay leave, N he oso understand lo....... I tink I cant find another boz like him lo......

Rainy Dae 7/8/08

2008-08-06T22:00:00.000-07:00

Dis morn I receive a col from TTS hospital... E doc.say my mum feel breatheless n haf fever..... so haf to send back to ICU for closer monitor.... I feel veri strange lor.... firstly say her condition is stable, nw haf to send back ICU again......My mum reali veri suffer.... From young to old, she nve enjoy gd life before.... Tk care of us so hard, bt I cant do anything at all, reali feel useless.....Wen I was young, no matter hw I create trouble, my mum will always der for mi, juz like my father beat mi or I failed my exam, my mum will always stand in front of mi, bt I nve fufill my duties as a dau. to filial her, onli nod hw to quarrel wif her or throw temper at her.....

If der is a god, I reali hope u gif mi a chance to filial my mum.... So I wun haf any regret........

Cloudy Dae 6/8/08

2008-08-05T20:04:00.000-07:00

wow.... todae e weather so cloudy,dunno will rain sucessful ant..... Hopefully will rain lo..... ytd my frenz Yvonne (wywy) col mi ask am i free todae ??? coz todae she B"dae so ask mi join dem for dinner, bt I reject it.... Coz nowadaes my family gt lot things happen so dun haf e mood..... N I oso dun wan to spoil their mood lo....... I dun wan coz of mi all e atmosphere becum strange n quiet lo..... Bt i gt tell her other time den treat her eat lo...... Dunno y mi become more n more Emo le..... Maybe lots of tings happen to mi, tt y becum like tt ba.....Last time cheerful n happi go lucky DEVILS dunno go wre le...... Hw I wish time can go back to e past....... coz nothin to bother n happi go lucky to pass my dae....... nw haf to bother n worri so much things......

As for e kinships or frenzship, in dis world dun haf real kins or frenz de..... If haf onli a few tt can trust n confide yourself lo..... Or else u r Nobody lo..... Nw make mi realise tt if u r wealthy or gt $$$, tt will col kinship or frenzship if u r poor, tt will no more kinships or frenzship n der will drift u far apart...... till lost contact Or M.I.A lo......so I tell myself I will make him pay double n let him taste hw is it e feelin begin helpless??? Dun let mi haf it a sucessful one dae....

sunny dae 5/8/08

2008-08-04T20:28:00.001-07:00

Dis morn. i reali feel veri bored, dunno y lei..... n dis morn I.M my jie (winnie), da jie da (ah gal ) n my darlin (meimei).... Suddenly veri miz dem alot.... dunno y lei... maybe quite a long time nve mit dem up le.... so miz dem veri much... Bt at dis moment , wun mit dem coz i dun wan to let dem c my sad n frustrate face especially is my darlin meimei, coz she is tt type veri emotion n sensitive lady n oso veri soft heart n loyal sis, tt y I name her ANGEL lo..... She can easily forget e person hu hurt her so deeply n den help e person wenever e person gt trouble... I shld say is her gd point or bad point lei....I reali dunno hw to say e difference le anyway i oso get used to it so many yrs le... As for my da jie da ah gal, she is veri bizi lady lor.... haf to make appoinment wif her den can mit up, bt sumtime she will I.M chat lo..... if i offline for many dae, she start to wori le, she will send msg say Am i k or wad happen to mi lo..... I nod tt she care for mi wen i young till nw she will worry for mi,tt y I anything happen wun let her nod, scare she will worri lo..... As for my jie winnie,she like to do last mins things, especially wen we tok abt food lo, she last mins will say let go n eat steamboat.... sumtime reali dunno wat to do...... Even I wan to mit dem I oso no mood.....

Dunno dis yr is wad yr men, all e misfortune things all fall on mi,1stly is my hubbi, nw is my mummy..... if der is a god , y treat mi so unfair, or is givin mi a test to go through...... I feel veri helpless.......

Rainy Dae 4/8/08

2008-08-03T21:00:00.000-07:00

Ytd is my unlucky dae men..... After knock off from wrk ,takin 165 bus gg back to my own hse...Juz reach my hse dwstair den do prayin n burn joss paper..... den I go up my hse n my neighbour is surprise to c mi back , n askin wre is my son.... She say todae her elder dau. B'dae.... Invite mi go her hse den i say I gt tings to do...... wen I open my hse door , feel like long time nve cum back le.....Den I wen toilet to do *Big business*.... den suddenly i heard *pong*...... I tot ppl little bug so ignore it lo..... after finish it, I go n find my clothes n DVD disc to bring back my mother in law hse to watch lo.... Ard 7.40pm, my father col mi.... Ask mi wan to go A star to look for him ant coz my uncle n auntie nw on e way cumin dw ma.... Den I tell him I go Hub to look for my sis.... Waitin for her to knock off ma.... After finish packin,I locked door den go n tk lift.... Wen I reach dwstair.... I was curious y gt wan police car.... I tot catchin thief or wad... Den I saw Police label surroundin e tree n many passer by crowed der.... I was shock to c police tent..... Wen I realise tt juz nw e *PONG* sound is ppl jump dw.....den I faster walk to e bus stop, coz hungry ghost festivel ma dun so KPO beta.... Nw I recall e sound i oso feel scare coz I stay der for 4 yrs nve happen dis before....Wen I reach Hub, I go n look for my sis n tell her wad happen wen i on e way here.... She say I reali veri unlucky men......Den my sis ride mi go n look for my father lo.... we reach A star der mit my father,uncle n my auntie... We sit dw der eat dinner ard 45 mins ltr we tell our father, we go off first coz we gg to TTS to visit my mum.....

Ard 9.45pm , we reach TTS der, we haf to register before we go up to e wards... den we tk lift at 3rd floor , we go N.I.C.U der to visit my mum..... we go in der to visit my mum bt e nurse say der r doin changin for my mum... ask both of us ltr den cum back so we two at outside waitin lo.... Abt 10.05pm, we go in again. finally can c my mum le.....we go inside ,my mum open her eyes, denI col her lo... den her eyes starin at e door for sumtime, den i follow her direction bt no wan lo.... after a while her eyes like lookin for sum wan, coz she onli saw mi n my sis onli, den my sis ask her, is she lookin for her grandson,Xiang xiang, den she veri agitate till her high blood goes up to 190.... Den we ask my mum to calm dw wait till she feelin beta le den bring xiang cum....We tell her its too late le so we nve bring xiang xiang cum over lo.....den I c her eyes watery, n she muz feel sad coz she nw couldnt even tok....even I bring my son go , he oso cannt go in at all....I c my mum like tt, my tears nearly cum out, bt i haf to bear it.... She will feel sad coz she luv her grandson so much....N I oso dun dare to tell her e truth wre is my hubbi.... I scare if i tell her her high blood goes up higher so i rather keep it from her......

Sunny Dae 3/08/08

2008-08-02T20:14:00.000-07:00

New dae started again, todae e weather is so hot lo..... hot till no one can stand it..... Ytd i receive a col from Yvonne (WYWY). She askin mi wanna go Genting to relax den I tell her my passport haven do it... She oso say haven do passport too..... I tell her der go ahead ba..... I gt too many thing to handle..... Coz I haf handle my son registration for PRI. 1.... Haf to handle dis n tt..... reali no time to go.....den (wywy) say nvm we can go other time since dis time we cant go 2gether....Late afternoon , my boz reach to e shop,den i mention to him tt my frenz askin mi wanna go Genting.... Den I tell him I reject coz I haven do my passport ma....My boz oso say he wan to do passport again coz his passport water contact so haf to renew lo.... He told mi go n do my passport den he will bring mi go MALAYSIA to eat gd gd things.... I at der laughin lo..... My boz oso say my wrkin time gt slightly changes... Startin from nxt wk SAT. wrk till 6pm den Sun wrk till 9pm coz my boz off ma..... he say wait till my hubbi cum back all e schedule will back to normal means every 2 wks SUN off lo.... LTR at 6pm I knock off , I will go back to my own hse to pray.... coz 7th mth ma..... Haf to pray "all e frenz' although I nt stayin der for e time begin..... maybe will ask my boz to let mi go off early half n hrs lo.... after prayin c hw is it maybe will col my Father c wre is he.... den I go dw find him den together go Hospital to visit my mum.... At der will col up my sis c wad time she knock off... maybe will wait for her lo.... Den c tonite she go back which hm??Ytd i gt ask my bro. hw is mummy le.... he say beta den e dae before lo.... at least her body will warm abit... nt like e dae before her body is cold... He say nw at least will blink her eyes wen tok to her.... I was relieve to heard wad my bro told mi lo ..... at least can let mi peace my mind....

Tt dae i saw my darlin (mei mei) blogs, wen i read wan of e paragraph, I was reali touch n tears reali drop out... She reali nod wad am i thinkin, If she reali mit mi at dis time, I sure will hug her n cry.....If we two huggin each other n cry in e public, passer by will hw to tink, muz be wonderin dis 2 ladys for wad reason cry.... Like tt cry in e public reali veri maru de..... Anyway my darlin reali veri bizi n stress n I oso dun wan to add another burden to her... Or else she reali cant tk it lo...

If der is a god, wad i wish is my Darlin (*** Meimei ********) will stay happi always n haf a beta life, dun let her suffer anymore le.... coz DEVILS N ANGELS areadi veri gd le.... nve create any trouble at dis world le.... If wan to punish, den u punish DEVILS ba.... Coz ANGELS is so kind n soft heart bt DEVILS is evils n cold blood..... JUZ let Angels be happi n fortune ever.......

Sunny Dae 2/8/08

2008-08-01T20:28:00.000-07:00

Todae dunno wad dae men.... Earlier in e morn. kana wan attitude customer.... wan to be repair Hp still wan to use such a bad attitude to mi.....No choice lor.... Do service line is like tt de..... Haf to c customer face to do ..... sumtime kana gd customer oso haf lo.... Bt dis area wan veri funny de... Any way i oso get used le.... Last nite my sis update to mi say my mum consious le.... n she say my mum seen haf drop tears before.... coz e nurse nve help my mum wipe face den my sis saw it lo..... My mum reali suffer lo.... no wonder she will drop tears.....Reali suffer n pain for her lo.... my mum haf to tolerate all sort of grip or tube.... no wonder she will cry..... cant tok areadi is a poor ting le.... I reali veri heartpain....... 2molo (3/8/08) I will go n visit her.... C hw is her condition le.... Last nite I was surprise to receive a col from a frenz name BABy.... Quite a long time nve contact le.... Den I ask him which country typoon will let him sms mi ... He say he at AMK centre saw my darlin Mei Mei n ask her hw is my condition le??? coz long time nve mit up mi le... So he sms mi lo den i tell him wad happen to my mum lo... He heard it oso surprise n ask hw is my mum le.... He ask mi dun worri muz tk care.... oso say in dis world oso gt mircale... ask mi to tink of positive side.... so I ask him wen he ORD n still gt mit up my 'SON' Marti' n Commander Hao.... he told mi gg to ORD soon le... n still gt mit up wif dem... He oso say der miz mi alot den I say izzit der feel bored or miz my laughter.... He say all of dem miz mi lo..... He say he miz e dae wen we all at AMK Astar coffeeshop der... Den I say for e time begin Mother wun cum back coz her life nw feel wif grey.... den I say if I cry der sure dunno wad to do at all.... He told mi if I cry out i will feel beta juz let mi cry lo.... bt I tell him dun wori coz I'm DEVILS wun so easily collaspe de.... He told mi in their heart MOTHER is always a cheerful Lady....

Sunny Dae 1/8/08

2008-07-31T22:58:00.000-07:00

Dunno y juz nw go n delete my blog.... nw haf to start all over again ..... Last nite is my auntie last dae funeral nite..... so I n my sis was ask to go dw to help.... wen we reach der dunno wad to do... Onli saw my relatives der all haf to go one by one to address dem..... Sum I even dunno hu der r.....Haf to ask my father hw shld i address dem... Dunno lei..... maybe many yrs nve contact or visit dem onli mit up sum occasions like new yr or any relatives pass away den mit up ba.... To mi der juz like a stranger lo..... nothin to tok lo.... or der will ask gt go visit my mum or wad...... Last nite ard 12 plus to 1 am... TTS doc col up n tell mi my mum condition is gettin worse le..... Nw become unconsious le.... I ask wad illness lead to her unconsious ..... E doc told mi is my mum kidney failuer till my mum unconsious, der gt ask Kidney surgeon to check say my mum nid to go dw I.C.U again... she go der to do kidney Diayis, my mum reali suffer alot... Last few days juz operate a hole at her throat for her to breathe more easily Bt insert a tube to connect oxygen for her to breathe..... n her high blood is high... Havin fever...wen her condition is stable der send her to wards.... At wards more worse lo , der say her condition is stable, bt I go n visit her , she still havin fever n her urine gt blood wen i ask e nurse abt her condition der juz told mi der send her urine for test. Haf to wait for e result .... Nw der say haf to send back to I.C.U..... My active n happi mum nw become lying on e bed n eveydae haf to insert lot of tube at her body.... e bad thing is nw she even cant tok , haf to stick wif e tube everydae...... She dun even nod hu gt cum n visit her..... Doc. firstly say e condition is stable nw turn it to worse..... Reali veri heartpain to c my mum haf to insert all sort of tube.... My son wanted to visit his grandmum bt e place he cant go at all.... He dunno tt her grandmum nw condition, he tot juz a small illness , even i tell him he oso dun understand,sumtime he will ask hw is ah ma le? I oso dunno hw to ans. at all...... I onli nod hw cum my family gt so much thing happens... reali dunno hw to handle.... Nw i onli wish my mum will get well soon .......